Since I became independent and came out to this working society, I feel that most of the time I'm alone. It's not that I don't have friends or colleagues. It's the feeling of loneliness travelling back home , eat alone, watch tv alone and sleep alone. This routine has been 8 years.
Occasionally, I go out with my friends or colleagues. We shop, eat, drink coffee, have high tea and watch movies. They can't accompany me forever. They have their newly set up families. I'm so envy of them. They can go out with their partners. They have their partners to accompany them. (I have never been in a relationship in my entire life). (-_-)
I'm all alone. Besides the weekday routine of going to work and going back home alone, I seldom go out on weekend nowadays. It's not as active going out as in the past. Nowadays, all my friends are busy with their boyfriends, husbands or babies. Yet I'm so free. This freedom has become boredom. I'm only busy occasionally, like busy with work, busy surfing Internet or busy preparing for holiday trip.
I have been to Australia alone.
I have been to Europe alone.
And I'm going to London alone again this year.
How I wish I could find someone to go with me.
How I wish I could find someone to have dinner with me.
How I wish I could find someone to watch movies with me.
How I wish I could find someone to go shopping with me.
How I wish I could find someone to drink coffee or have high tea with me.
Celine Dion - All By Myself
(P.S. The 3rd sentence of the lyrics "making.." does not represent me)
