Don't want to be alone

Suddenly, this feeling of loneliness hit me so hard.

Since I became independent and came out to this working society, I feel that most of the time I'm alone. It's not that I don't have friends or colleagues. It's the feeling of loneliness travelling back home , eat alone, watch tv alone and sleep alone. This routine has been 8 years. 

Occasionally, I go out with my friends or colleagues. We shop, eat, drink coffee, have high tea and watch movies. They can't accompany me forever. They have their newly set up families. I'm so envy of them. They can go out with their partners. They have their partners to accompany them. (I have never been in a relationship in my entire life). (-_-)

I'm all alone. Besides the weekday routine of going to work and going back home alone, I seldom go out on weekend nowadays. It's not as active going out as in the past. Nowadays, all my friends are busy with their boyfriends, husbands or babies. Yet I'm so free. This freedom has become boredom. I'm only busy occasionally, like busy with work, busy surfing Internet or busy preparing for holiday trip.

I have been to Australia alone.
I have been to Europe alone.
And I'm going to London alone again this year.

How I wish I could find someone to go with me.
How I wish I could find someone to have dinner with me.
How I wish I could find someone to watch movies with me.
How I wish I could find someone to go shopping with me.
How I wish I could find someone to drink coffee or have high tea with me.

 Celine Dion - All By Myself

(P.S. The 3rd sentence of the lyrics "making.." does not represent me)

Valentine's Day 14 Feb 2012

I bought smiley donut for my breakfast today. I took picture of it and posted on Facebook. "Good morning everyone! Happy Valentine Day! (^_^)

July 2011- Feb 2012

I have not been blogging for months. Many things happen.

Last year July to August, I went to Europe before I joined my new company. I visited Amsterdam, Germany, Lucerne, Innsbruck, Venice, Rome, Florence, NICE, Avignon and Paris. So many cities and countries! I was so glad that I took up Contiki tour package. Without it, I dare not travel alone. I got to know a lot of friends. They came from Australia, New Zealand, USA, Canada and South Africa. I was the only Chinese looking girl from Singapore! (^_^) Most of them joined Contiki Europe trip with their friends and partners. I did not because I took it up last minutes just before I joined my current company. Who would do this and got to spent a few thousands for it? Haha... :D Due to this, I felt very lonely for the whole trip. :P :P :P Got to travel but did not enjoy? Hehehe... A lot of people will envy but to me, how I wish someone is out there to enjoy this trip with me. (^_^) There are some of my singles tour mates felt that too. Haha...

After my trip, I started my new job. I like this job. I do not have to do programming anymore. (*_^) Hehe... However, when I started my current job, I was pretty stress up. I had to learn a lot of systems. I had to answer a lot of calls, even mid-night calls. I had to be in the clinic or wards to support project new rollout. These 6 months were the most tiring months I ever had. One of my colleagues understands how I feel. I was new, expected to learn fast and complete the work by end of the day and there are hectic periods. That's why it's hard for me. Anyway, I have learnt a lot now and I am able to handle a lot of things on myself. Cheers! (^v^)

September: I celebrated my birthday with my family and friends. :)

November to February:
1. Attended 5 wedding dinners
2. Celebrated Christmas with my friends
3. Stay @ home during New Year Eve
4. Avoided house visiting during Chinese New Year
5. Today, Valentine's Day, had dinner alone and came home early

Healthcare!!! Your Health, I Care! (^_^)v

I had signed my appointment letter. I will be working in a hospital.

I would expose to Electronic Medical Records (EMR), Electronic Health Records (EHR) and Health Level 7 (HL7).

AND...a lot of project managing responsibilties. Yeah!!! No more programming. Hahahaha... (^_^)

AND AND...Most importantly, I have PASSION working at Healthcare Sector. It's meaningful to me. Personally, I will always have a great sense of satisfaction working at Healthcare. (^_^) (^_^) (^_^)

PeraMakan @ Keppel Club

I was having project lunch at PeraMakan, Keppel Club - after all the hardwork. Haha... This is my first time at Keppel Club. Yeah! (^_~)v

But I prefer the previous project lunch at Swissotel Merchant Court. Because it was a buffet lunch. :P Yummy! Keke... ^_^